During the last 8 months of my SAVE THE DATE project, I have been thinking a lot of prostitution/escorting and selling your body. I am not sure if my body belongs to me any more; if I have dates and sex ecounters for money, whould it change anything? Certainly I can admit that I have become very open. One day I registered at the GayRoyal video chat community, which tends to have older users. Every time I received any messages there, I tried to get some benefitis out of it by asking men to provide some donations for my work. So I was using an online presence of my body to earn money. It worked out, step by step. I became crazy about it and I asked my cute-looking friend to register there too so I could “sell“ him too. We opened a new account for him and I was using his profile to contact other guys. Unfortunately, it was too much work to find any clients, so I ended up skipping this idea. It was also strange to have kind of double identity and chat with so many people while trying to get their money.
Sometimes I was using Growlr – an app for bears – to find some donors. It was the same: I got aggressive and nervious as it was super hard to find any clients. If I had found some, they either wouldn’t pay much, or at the last moment I was pushing back and didnt go to meet them. I don’t think I could be a prostitute – I would feel strange to be paid for sex. That would make me sad. I know I date people that I don’t really like for my project now, so maybe the possibility of dating people for money would kind of change it? I dont think so. I would get more depressed and sad I think.
One night I was walking in the Kurfürsten Strasse again, I passed some pushy sex workers who asked me if I would love to fuck them. I smiled and just kept walking. On the corner of the Potsdamer Strasse, I saw two very beautiful men and I forced myself to speak to them. There were from Morocco and we spoke English. I don’t know if I gave the impression that I sell myself, but when I started asking if they wanna have some girls they aksed me immedately how much I cost. That turned me on and I was happy about this question…
P. S. Recently I met a Hungarian guy in the Tiergarten. He was asking for money as I was surrounding him. I didn´t want to pay. He kindly asked me to help him by spreading the word about his service and he provided his phone number. If you wanna meet him you can reach him on this mobile:
+49 151 4491 7846, Emrah
Picture by Andrea Linss